Sleeplessness has returned. Dont even know why. Nothing has changed. Or maybe thats just it. Nothings changed even when i was happy everyone else was still miserable and acting like they dont give a fuck. I can see it. Its all smoke and mirrors and ‘messy nights’. I dont want to lose the hapiness i had the past couple weeks. But i can feel it slipping away and im returning to the way i used to be. Maybe i just need stronger pills. Dunno. Ill see what the doctor lady says. Put on a smile till then.